happy cny

first day of the chinese new year. it is hard to escape from the house visiting tradition unless you are going overseas during this long holidays break. it can be quite tiring at time because practically i have to travel all around singapore. people dont live in the kampong style anymore. for example today, i took an hour to travel from cck to tampiness by car, along the PIE.

i used to be very excited about cny. shopping in town with friends to get new clothes, helping my parents to prepare for the reunion dinner and the best part is putting the snacks into nice oriental containers. however, the excitement doesnt seem to be there anymore as i grow older.

i am not interested to get myself tired out for cny. i do not need all the hype about cny. i only want to spend a quiet and cosy cny with family and friends. i just want to spend time to catch up with people whom i treasure and love me as much as i do. i hate to make small talks with people i only see once every year, or repeat their questions every year.

oh wells, get lots of ang baos!! happy chinese new year, pull your ears. =)

you dont have a choice

there is no complete truth to 'you determine your own destiny'. pretty often the environment, the situation you are stuck in, loved ones and money will pay a part in your decision making. so you wont be able to do exactly what you want initially. let's not talk about doing things that you like.

so what do you do when you are forced by circumstances? squat down and start to cry on the spot or maybe make a fuss out of everything and blame everyone except yourself for the outcome. no! although you are currently involved in a situation you dont like, you dont give up. why? simply because losing is not something you like.

and so you pull yourself together for the last time and tell yourself not to give up. it seems like a long and lonely journey ahead but your loved ones are always secretly cheering you on. never wallow in self pity because what you are facing now is not the end. there are many people who are fighting for the extra second in life out there and why should you give up on yours here?

you, fight on!

things that i hate about men

the world is made up of different individuals. i heard from a friend that aquarian is supposed to be at loggerheads with cancerian but my bestie is born on the 17July. i guess we dont really need to accept everything from books on how to build good interpersonal relationships wholeheartedly. seriously, it boils down to whether the other party is able to tolerant your flaws and accept you as a human being.

this group of people can get onto my nerves very easily. they are the group of people who loves to live in their own time. when things go wrong, they choose to stand right at the same spot for the longest time you can ever imagine. dont they know that time waits for no man? things dont go backwards like pressing the backspace button on the keypad. we move forward! they refuse to do anything to salvage the situation. they whine and live in self-pity. seriously, get a life! if you dont love yourself, you cant accept the same from others.

i cant say i am a super duper responsible person but you do earn my respect if you are willing to be responsible for your own actions. dont start to be defensive when others criticize you. it doesnt reflect good on you. others will just say you dont listen to advice. also, dont blame everything except yourself for a wrong. even if you are not the direct cause of the mistake, if you are put in charge of it, bear the responsibility. living at an age like yours, i seriously dont understand why do you still have to make them be worried for you? it just irks me more.

why am i starting the brand new year with such a hate-me entry? i saw what i shouldnt have. the cycle is going to start again. is it really that hard to make a clean, clear, definite, sharp cut from personal relationships? are you really that soft hearted to be taken in by the empty promises and sweet talk? i just have to tell you this, you never learn your lesson. good luck!